was posted at 11:45 AM with 0 comments
It's 2.30 in the morning. And I'm here, sitting on my bed, legs in my blanket, doing a lot of thinking. So, I decided to write 'em all out here.
Suddenly remembered that few of my friends are probably leaving. And, they're leaving to places where, I cant certainly visit them often. Plus, they're my really close friends. Two of my closest. But why?! You did this to me once, and now you're doing it to me, again. I remembered back then when i was 10, my best friends were Jia Anne and Valerie. And there was one year where most of my classmates transferred schools. And when I went back to school after the long holiday, I noticed the two of them transferred school too and I'm all alone with a group of guys. I was feeling so sad and lonely. But that was also when I was offered to sit with shiow li and I joined their so-called gang.
And so, back to the topic. I know with facebook and so many other social networks, we can easily keep in touch with each other. But then, it's never gonna be like how we used to be anymore. It's really hard for me to accept this. Not having anyone to talk to, suck. Not seeing each other in a long time, suck. Having to bare all these by myself, suck. I'm dang sure that the feeling, is gonna SUCK.

At the same time, I suddenly felt so naive. It was just some short-term attention and it can leave me feeling like shit. At the first place, I shouldn't be expecting too much. That's what you get, when you expect too much: NOTHING. Oh wait, there's something: feeling shitty. 


was posted at 2:09 AM with 0 comments
White lips, pale face
Breathing in snowflakes
Burnt lungs, sour taste
Light's gone, day's end
Struggling to pay rent
Long nights, strange men

And they say
She's in the Class A Team
Stuck in her daydream
Been this way since 18
But lately her face seems
Slowly sinking, wasting
Crumbling like pastries

And they scream
The worst things in life come free to us
Cos we're just under the upperhand
And go mad for a couple of grams
And she don't want to go outside tonight
And in a pipe she flies to the Motherland
Or sells love to another man
It's too cold outside
For angels to fly
Angels to fly

Ripped gloves, raincoat
Tried to swim and stay afloat
Dry house, wet clothes
Loose change, bank notes
Weary-eyed, dry throat
Call girl, no phone
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/e/ed_sheeran/the_a_team.html ]
And they say
She's in the Class A Team
Stuck in her daydream
Been this way since 18
But lately her face seems
Slowly sinking, wasting
Crumbling like pastries

And they scream
The worst things in life come free to us
Cos we're just under the upperhand
And go mad for a couple of grams
But she don't want to go outside tonight
And in a pipe she flies to the Motherland
Or sells love to another man
It's too cold outside
For angels to fly
An angel will die
Covered in white
Closed eye
And hoping for a better life
This time, we'll fade out tonight
Straight down the line

And they say
She's in the Class A Team
Stuck in her daydream
Been this way since 18
But lately her face seems
Slowly sinking, wasting
Crumbling like pastries
They scream
The worst things in life come free to us
And we're all under the upperhand
Go mad for a couple of grams
And we don't want to go outside tonight
And in a pipe we fly to the Motherland
Or sell love to another man
It's too cold outside
For angels to fly
Angels to fly
To fly, fly
Angels to fly, to fly, to fly
Angels to die


''Only Ed Sheeran can make a prostitute sound beautiful" says a random youtuber. :)


was posted at 2:26 AM with 0 comments
I need a time machine, so bad. I'm not being greedy. Just rewind it back to the beginning of 2012. As usual, at the beginning of the year, I'll get all ready to accept a new challenge-form 4 life. When teacher calls us to study the topic to get ready for the next day, I really did. I meant, it actually feels real good and i gotta admit, it's much better when you read it first before teacher teaches it. Homework, all done. Classes, never missed out a word teacher says. And the best thing is, i actually jot down some notes i think. Omg yenn, it's hard to believe you were such a hardworking student just a few months ago, and you're the total opposite now. I don't know what's happening. I'd tell myself in school every day to revise SOMETHING at home. At least, SOMETHING. But well, i get all sleepy and lazy whenever i come home. I meant, you can't blame me. Home is too cozy to get all hardworking and study. :P
Well well, i think i should really get going with my bm work.

Essays are the last thing I would wanna do on a Monday afternoon, especially after a long day at school. :S